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Sunday, October 01, 2006

its almost 2 ald and im still up. yeap.

chi proj's due on monday and i dun think we've started yet. i was aiming ter finish hw by 2day, but guess tts impossible ald. getting tired, and yeh. dun have the motivation i had the last wk. fyi i stayed up until 3.30 and finished hw due on tuesday. 4got those tt were due on monday =.-

anw 2day was terribly boring. was practically doing nth cept blog hopping and smsing. speaking of tt, i still have xi meng ter thank. ahwells. long story.

msn seems so lifeless nowadays. juz dun feel like talking, yet its impolite ter suddenly stop and say "hey i gtg now" or sth liddat. at least tts how i feel. so yeap. i dont do tt. i try ter stop myself frm juz saying "lol" and ending the conver. ahwells.

depression, as she kindly put tt. dun agree tt the guys in class really feel depressed tho. they still seem alrite ter me. heh.

guys can get over stuff easily. girls tend ter get sentimental and yeap. emotional. and plus... girls have other disadvantages at times. sometimes i wonder whether being a guy is beta thn a girl...

ahwells. im born like this. im stuck wif this, but fer how long it juz depends. mebbe tmw ill juz get knocked over by a van, or mebbe ill live until a thousand yrs old, as i once joked abt wif... yeap. the "101 family".

it was sucha pity we had ter stop.

now i hafta use my sis' hp. smsing wif tt sucks. the t9 sucks, the keypad sucks... etc etc. but haiz. hafta make do wif tt first. my own dear hp is still being repaired. gahh i miss it so much. x(

now everything seems so meaningless. so pointless. ppl talk abt the meaning of life, and yadayada ppl talk abt the meaninglessness of life as well. shant elaborate. but really. recently everything's so damn sian. guess i got influenced.

abt influencing, no doubt i have been. my attitude have been changing, and it still is. i read my chatlogs fer a few reasons. ter check on the progress of my life is one of em. yes yes i noe i really sound lifeless at times. wen im in a more hyper mood, i read those chatlogs and realise tt i really mightve been too much sounding like tt. its like im pouring cold water on the other party.

ive realised how little ive come ter care. but yet. i seem so unstable. one moment i dun give a damn. one moment i start missing everything so much tt i wna find a small place on earth fer myself ter crawl in and juz start collecting all my memories. all of em.

plus the recent happenings. i think ill rather prefer staying in pri sku really. mebbe i wun feel tt much, i wun think tt much, i wun care tt much. nah i noe ill grow up, but its nt tt. its the ppl, they're diff. so diff. i grew up wif those kinda ppl, so i am tt kinda person. now ppl are diff. i take so long ter adapt, thn juz hafta change agn.

hahaha. why, im having inspiration ter blog in the middle of the night. juz like the last midnite madness wif xinyi and were dere a few others as well? but it did bring abt some nice stuff, like me calling phs korkor. at the same time i was having a pm war wif xinyi abt how much THEY suck. it shldve been arnd this time as well. and juz a few min ago i was juz scribbling a letter ter someone juz fer venting my frustrations. but nv will i post tt letter. cos if i did... i wud be letting a cat nearly half a yr old outta the bag. so yeap.

the cat's suffocating inside the bag. i noe it is, but i juz hafta be cruel juz this time and only open the bag wen the cat's gone. actually i dun even need ter open it. it can juz remain nth... but a memory.

well basically. this post's crap yeh. u shldnt have read it actually. =P